fear and hope all wrapped together

There is a point in a mothers life when your child is harmed. There will be many of these. Some will cause us to freak out more then others. I've had maybe three in the years of being a mom of four. One recently, had me to the point of begging God not to take any of my kids so soon because that would be one thing, I'm certain, I could not withstand. My kids or the one whom I love, my husband. The storms that we think we can't survive are the ones the LORD puts us in. If it's only to assure and remind us that GOD is big and faithful that there's nothing we can't withstand if we only put our trust in Him. So easy to remember but so often we forget. We're surrounded by a corrupt world where people are telling others, "You can't." " It's not enough." "It can't be done." Those are people who put God in a box and refuse to allow Him to change their lives.

Nevertheless, my son is fine. Banged up to say the least. Sometimes we just learn the hard things the hard way. I bet you couldn't get him to repeat the same incident for a bucketful of ice cream with candy on it. I am so blessed with having much. My magnificent husband. Beautiful kids. Loving people in my life, who without them, I would miss out on experiencing love, agape love. Although, not forgetting that Jesus always pursues this type of love towards me. I can't imagine living life without experiencing it from my brothers and sisters whom my heart is captured by.

We're in a place in our lives where we're deciding on being homeowners or renters. We are have our eyes on a particular home in a town we always knew God would lead us to. It seems rather perfect. But I do try and remind myself not to be too anxious. As Philippians 4:6 says ""Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God..." I have no doubts that the LORD has His good and perfect will for us. As a matter of fact, that is my and my husbands desire, is to be in His will.

I look ahead towards the things of God. Some days are better then others. Whether or not I have complete quiet time with the LORD various day by day. But, within my soul there's always a prayer to to prayed, blessings to be thankful for, sin to confess, and most importantly, His name always being professed as my Lord and Savior.