OFF WITH THEIR HEADS! Asking God to help me become a more mericful wife.

I didn't think that I could continue this blog without informing everyone the definition of "mercy" according to Dictionary.com

Mercy:
Compassionate or kindly forbearance shown toward an offender, an enemy, or other person in one's power; compassion, pity, or benevolence: Have mercy on the poor sinner.
the poor sinner.
An act of kindness, compassion, or favor.

And the definition of "forbearance" to better understand the word mercy.


Forbearance
1.the act of forbearing; a refraining from something.
2.
forbearing conduct or quality; patient endurance; self-control.
3.
an abstaining from the enforcement of a right.


I was having a conversation with a friend earlier today about the fact that I feel like I am in need of a vacation. Husband and I. Ranting about the fact that I talked to my husband about this need to take us on vacation because of previous not-so-splendid events. I later found it to be an opportunity to see how I'm a wife that doesn't show much mercy. Even though we got a good laugh over the phone it still remained true. I am my husbands not so pleasant reminder of the things he fell short to come through on. Especially on the days I'm feeling overly emotional.


You see, I feel like I'm deserving of a vacation. Because, well, we've been married almost 6 years. No honeymoon, still no vacation him and I. Not even a wedding night I thought was up to par according to my standards. Spoiled thought? Yes! I also don't fail to bring up our wedding night when I have the chance. Merciless? Very much!

Do I have the right to make my husband feel like he's being executed? OFF WITH HIS HEAD! No!I'm going to inform everyone that the antonym for "mercy" is "cruel". So during the times I'm purposely merciless I am being cruel. OUCH! My husbands intentions have always been the best. He wasn't purposely trying to make me feel discontent. Even if I was. Who am I? I'm embarrassed to even think that I should have that right to make him feel guilty about not getting or reminding him of events that should never be talked about again. It's not usually a habit for me to become like this character. I do know its a character that I don't want to fall into again.

God is merciful. He is merciful in our unrighteousness, our sins and our lawless deeds. He remembers them no more. Hebrews 8:12

Thats absolutely perfect love! I'm not perfect. I know that the LORD is. He is in my heart. I should live a life that mirrors His love through mercy, grace, and forgiveness.

Jesus says in Matthew 5:7-9

"Blessed are the merciful, for they shall obtain mercy. Blessed are the pure in heart, For they shall see God. Blessed are the peacemakers, For they shall be called sons of God."

To conclude this story, rant, and truth. I feel like it should be my head. But given the fact that my Savior is perfect He is fixing my cruel heart and teaching me some things on the way.

Have you ever had one of those days...you know, the good ones?

Today was a day of perfect balance. I want to say that from now on, every day is going to be exactly what today was. Might I add, can you have a perfectly balanced day when you have your period? Maybe sometimes. So with period and all it was a successful day. These are the days to blog about!

I've always known in my head that scheduling was important. I'm a planner, but not a hardcore by the minute planner. Especially with four kids four and under. One, because there are always unexpected things happening. Always discipline to be enforced. Another is giving kids freedom to be kids (only in appropriate doses). So I gathered that there was a perfect flow today.


I did however have to correct my oldest quite a few times today. Discipline has not been lacking these days. Especially with my oldest. He's a sneaky clever guy and that can potentially be dangerous. A house under control is very pleasant and the chances of you hiding out crying while ripping out your hair is less likely to occur. Discipline is key. To discipline and to teach.

I had to teach my oldest the word "aggravating" today. I defined in "kid terms" as "bothering." If you ask him, he'll tell you. We went over it more then a handful of times. He does it a lot with his sisters. There is a natural pull for brothers to behave this way with sisters so I'm not that worried about it. I also know my girls can be overly dramatic about it.

But anyway, I had the opportunity to thank God during my quiet time and acknowledge His presence. Yes, in my own room. No disturbances. For 20 minutes.

"Be still and know that I am God." Psalm 46:10

That topped the day. Time to give my thoughts to Him, share my joys with Him, and giving Him praises is what brings me fulfillment.

So even though I'm not a hardcore scheduler, I do think having some kind of plan for the day is important. Its for sanity sake that I, as a mom, need some quiet time so I'm not a rude unlovable wife when my husband gets home :)